spyrothedraglover122

Hey ya'll it's your boy Julian, checking in to ramble about some stuff. A whole lot happened last year and so much has gone on since I was last truly active on here. 

I got finished with counselling early last year, just sort of drifted away and lost contact with them. It was pretty much coming to a close as I'm now finding ways to cope with losing my dad. It's been a rough couple of years and it still hurts a lot. I think about him everyday and I make sure to visit Wales every few months to bring him flowers. I still haven't been able to move there just yet but I really hope it's where I end up for I know it's where I truly belong with my Welsh blood.

In June last year I officially came out to my close family members and a few friends!!! If you weren't aware since I was never around here to say it, surprise I guess!! lol. I was struggling with my identity and my attraction for a while and I'll admit that it was one of the things that was heavily affecting me as I tried to keep a secret until I could accept myself. I realized that it wasn't good for me to be constantly panicking over it. When I finally plucked up the courage to be truthful to myself and the people around me, it felt like a huge weight off my shoulders. It's mostly been a positive experience, people have been accepting besides the few that have treated me pretty badly because of it. But other than that, it feels good to know who I am and be okay with it at last.

Anxiety and depression has still been present as it's not really something I can control when the chemicals up there just aren't right. But you find ways to get past each obstacle when you've experienced it since you were nine years old like I have. I was under a lot of stress for a large portion of the year due to personal reasons that I cannot discuss and that took it's toll on my mental health too. I just wasn't in the right place to handle too many sites at once, hence why I wasn't around here much. I've really missed it though! I'll try my best not to disappear too often, haha.

The good news is that I've been a lot more stable recently! I think I'm slowly getting a little more comfortable with where I'm at right now. I've been sleeping a lot better and I'm working hard to make other changes to my daily routine that'll help me down the road. Hopefully that means a lot of good things for the next few months to come.

Well that's all for tonight, feeling pretty tired now. Stay safe everyone, catch you later!

Not sure if anyone remembers me but here I am, I guess. I'm not dead, it's just that I gave up on posting stuff on here since I always end up deleting it. I'm still thinking about what to do about this but I don't think I'm actually leaving. See ya'll later.

Hey everyone, I've kind of let myself slip away from here again so I just thought I'd explain myself a bit and just take the time to vent a little.

I haven't been feeling very motivated recently, but at the same time I have been. I really want to get some things out but a bunch of things just sort of keep me from doing so. I'm still finding it hard to make myself focus on one emotion at a time and it's been really overwhelming. I've been talking to my counsellor about it and I could be visiting the doctor if I'm not too worried about it. Let's just say we all have an idea of has this might be and we're going to see what we can do.

So yeah I apologize for kind of showing up and disappearing all the time but I just really haven't been feeling it. I hope to bring some things here again soon. Thanks for reading.